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Ah, my apologies, I didn't mean to assume. I'm glad you have someone you can talk to about this sort of thing. It can be difficult to try to process it and deal with it all on your own!

...We spoke for a while, about all sorts of things. He was the one that helped me figure out context for what was happening in my past life, and I greatly appreciate it.

I also asked him if I could contact him if things went poorly, as I said I would.

Oh, that's good to hear as well. He was willing to help, should you need it, ja?

He's willing, yes. It should be all right, either way.

Good, I'm glad. Of course, if you ever need any more help, I'm just a call away!

[It really is a relief to hear you've got someone who will help that you can trust, though...]

I appreciate it; that's very kind of you. I'll try to avoid troubling you any more than is necessary, though.

You don't have to worry too much about that! I'm sure it wouldn't be a hassle at all.

It's possible some of it should remain our world's business, and not anyone else's. With no offense meant, of course.

No, no, of course, that's very fair. Should you ever want an outside opinion on anything, I certainly wouldn't mind listening. But I do understand that, and I'm not offended at all!

...I've remembered doing something terrible to a large number of people. Not simply planning, but succeeding. We don't think it happened to everyone, but we don't know if it was ever reversed - if such a thing is possible to begin with.

It's not an easy thing, and I can't imagine it would be any better trying to discuss it with just anyone.

Oh, I understand. My apologies, I'm not attempting to pry. I do understand how it could be something you don't want to discuss with anyone else.

[Honestly, he agrees with that more than his husband's take on it, but he supports his husband in everything he does and it does seem to help him, so.]

I hope it's something that was able to be reversed at some point, though.

...I do as well. I'll be all right even if it wasn't, but it was something that shouldn't have been done in the first place, especially because I don't think I meant to hurt them.

[...He wasn't really thinking of it anywhere near the context of hurting them in the first place.]

You wanted to help people, ja? I do hope things end up working out as well as they can in your memories. It can be difficult not knowing what's going to happen.

It wasn't a black-and-white situation, unfortunately - it wasn't quite down to helping them or not. There was a situation in which I had to choose between leaving them be to live out their lives unchallenged but ultimately cursing them to die, or saving them from an all-encompassing threat but harming them all terribly in the process.

I chose to do the latter.

I see. It sounds like these memories might have been difficult. I hope that things get better from here, but...

[Well, they usually don't.]

I have difficulty seeing how they could be worse, to be honest, given that I've remembered succeeding in what I was doing.

[It's kind of hard to go downhill from "I awakened a god and punched everyone in the brain"?]

Ja, that's certainly true... Kind of hard to get worse than that!

Exactly.

[man, he has not even remembered what he did to his family.]

...It was good of you to check in.

[good fuckin luck arthur.......]

Of course! I was a bit worried about you after our last conversation, so I'm very glad to hear you've been able to talk about things with the other person from your world!

[...Oh.]

I didn't mean to worry you.

Oh, it wasn't that bad, don't concern yourself with it! Like I said, I'm glad you have someone who you can talk about this sort of thing with, and you do seem to be doing well now!

I've been working on it to the best of my ability.

[He hesitates for a moment, though, before just - ]

I'm also seeing someone, professionally. So I have medication if it gets to be a bit much. I should be fine.

Oh, that's excellent! Not that I thought it would get to that point, but it's good that you have someone just in case!

[That's really good, honestly... You didn't have to tell him that, but he really does appreciate it.]

I've been seeing them for years now, so I know I can talk to them.

[...look, he doesn't want to say it but he's seen the guy yelling about suicide in front of god and everyone.]

[y-yeah...]

It's good to have someone like that who you can depend on. Thank you for telling me, I really do appreciate it. I'm glad to know I don't need to worry too much about you!

[It's half-joking, at least???]

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