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Its good that something like that worked out for you, and that he was there to help you. But I'm not going to make anyone go out of their way for me. Being able to help them is enough for me.

You don't have to be concerned about me, either.

It's a bit hard not to be after hearing something like that...

[Arthur..........]

Well, I do think it's something you should consider, especially if there is a regain you're worried about. If you don't feel like you can turn to anyone else, you can always call me. I'm rather fond of helping people too, after all.

Again, it's nothing life-threatening, and just something I'll have to learn to live with. I'm...concerned about how it will impact my life, but I should be all right eventually.

I do appreciate the offer, though.

Of course.

[There's no arguing this with you, so he'll just let it go.]

I do hope it'll be something you can get used to fairly quickly.

[...listen, just.]

...I sustained an injury. In a fight against some of those demons I mentioned. I believe the damage done was permanent; I wasn't in pain, but my right side was partially paralyzed and I couldn't use my right arm anymore.

It's alarming, but liveable.

...Oh. I'm terribly sorry to hear that.

[...you're totally right-handed, aren't you...]

I can imagine it'll be difficult to get used to something like that... I'm sure you will, of course! I am sorry that's something you'll have to deal with, however.

[and he thought the blastia was bad...]

I adapted well enough back then, I assume. I didn't have much difficulty fighting or using a sword with my left hand after a while, and I didn't seem bothered by the lack of function. I kept it covered by outer layers of clothing, so it's possible I didn't care for the appearance of it, but that's about all the trouble it seemed to give me.

It's good that it didn't trouble you much in your last life! Perhaps that will make it come easier in this one.

[Here's hoping...]

Perhaps.

[...]

I'm sorry for troubling you with all of this. I'm glad that you were willing to meet with me, however.

Oh no, don't worry about that! It's been no trouble at all. I've found that it does help to talk about these things, so I don't mind it at all!

[Plus, he is trying to get better about being honest about his past life. It's not like this is the difficult part, but every little bit helps, probably.]

Thank you for coming out to meet me!

Of course.

[...]

I used to go to high school with someone on the network. He's from the same world I am; we discuss memories sometimes.

Will it worry you slightly less if I tell you I'll call him if something happens?

[He really is that obvious, huh...]

It would, yes. I suppose it's a bit of an odd sentiment, but I am glad you have someone from your world here. It can be helpful to have someone to talk to about your memories like that!

Why is that odd? We get along, and we knew one another in our past lives. I wouldn't say I'm friends with him, but he's agreeable enough.

Well, I can see where some people might never want to inflict this sort of situation on someone they knew in their past life. Though that's a bit different, since you knew him before!

We were both brought on at the same time, so I suppose that changes things as well.

Yes, it does! I'm glad you have someone, even if he's not necessarily a friend.

He's a good person.

[That is important, okay.]

Neither of us were good people in our past lives, but he's a good person now.

I'm very glad to hear it. It's important to keep that distinction. It can be hard to remember it sometimes, especially when your memories are really bad, but it's very important.

It's good you two have each other!

I want to understand the person I used to be, but I'm not going to take responsibility for what I chose to do in my past life.

[......]

I don't think he would have liked that very much, anyway. Knowing that someone else was suffering because of him. The most I can do is honor that.

That's a nice sentiment. I think that's a good way to go about it.

[He's still not entirely sure what he thinks about taking responsibility for the actions of someone's past life, but the latter part is something he can easily agree with.]

I've remembered a lot of terrible things. But despite all of it, I know I didn't want anyone to suffer back then. I wanted to alleviate the world's pain.

It was...very important to me.

I'm sure things will start to fit together with more memories. It's good that you know exactly what your goal was, at least!

...I do, yes.

[He doesn't like it, but he does.]

Perhaps I'll discuss the method with you sometime, but I think I ought to talk it over with that person I know first. He...deserves to know, I think, and I'm not sure how ready I am to talk about it yet besides.

Of course. You can discuss it with me whenever you'd like! I'm usually not all that busy, so we can meet like this again at some point, if you'd like.

[Oh, um.]

I would appreciate that.

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